50 shades of fear Is the Corona virus real? ... yes. Do I totally know what it is or is it everything the media says it is, I won’t go that far, yet. . . But what I do know is that it’s excavating peoples fear like I’ve never seen in my lifetime. Gone are the cover- ups, that insulate us from having people see our fear. You can say that the only reason the fear is there is because of the Corona virus & I’m hear to say, that .. is .. just .. not ... so. . . The fear was there long before the Corona virus came along. It lives & breathes within our nerve systems only to be perceived by those who have a keen eye for seeing fear at these depths. It hides itself in all kinds of avoidant habits, behaviors & work arounds, but it’s always been there. Don’t act so surprised. Let’s not get into why it’s always been there & just say it’s from unhealed past trauma & simply part of what it means to be human. . . Take the Corona virus aspect out of it & do a little deep dive of self-reflection into the 50 or so shades of fear you constantly deal with & try to avoid daily; anxiety, timid, trepidation, terror, worrisome, horrified, alarmed, panic, distressed, uneasy, apprehensive & many others including the “core confusion” that I personally work on, which is Slow or Hesitation(when I’m scared to make a decision for some reason) vs. Thoughtful, when fear doesn’t have a grip on me & I’m free’d up to choose from a liberated & intuitive place. . . Healing our fears relieves our nerve systems of all kinds of burden & stress it constantly holds onto which makes us more susceptible to sickness & dis-ease of all kinds. . . We avoid all kinds of scary situations, healing practices & opportunities in life, because we don’t want to feel these feelings regardless of the rewards or all the benefits people rave about. The Corona virus isn’t inviting us, it’s intruding & forcing us to deal with our fears & apparently it’s not letting go or going away till it’s point has been thoroughly made. Let’s get the lesson, whatever it may be.
- Maria Lopez
In a world that is hectic, my time with Harold Turk is my moment to BE, to grow and learn about myself in a deeper way. I haven’t always had a passion for investing in personal growth, especially because I have always suffered from low self-esteem. Even when others always saw me as a leader, the confident and secure one in the room, I knew that was far from the truth. This of course led me to unfulfilling and abusive relationships, especially with myself. I became and expert at allowing those I loved to take advantage of me. But then came the health issues. Stress had made itself present through rashes, body aches, swelling in my joints… at times making it even difficult to walk. It was clear that mind and body healing was necessary in my life. I was done not facing the MY truth. The past was affecting my health and most importantly the type of future I was setting myself up for. Since seeing Harold, he has allowed me to connect the physical pain to the stories I had been believing. I have slowed down, learned to respect my body and have developed healthier habits. Most importantly, I now make it a point to be more conscious about not wasting my time and energy on those things and people that are not deserving it. Harold has been a light and a force that has allowed me to love myself most in my vulnerable moments and to push forward even when I’ve been scared. Thanks Harold for being a teacher, a healer and a friend.