When you start to engage in emotional healing work with yourself, you begin to find that you don’t need as many physical “things” to fill the voids of all those emotional wounds you used to carry around.

You also start to see a reduction of addictive behaviors that have been covered up by emotional issues & trauma.

Sickness is an opportunity to check in with all the places within ourselves & our lives where we’ve become disconnected & have often ignored.

It’s always a good time to do this, but when we’re sick, it’s especially vital to check in with the body to listen carefully to all its communications & its needs in order to bring it back into wellness.

Depending on what you believe in, whether it be God or universal intelligence (I believe in both), it designed us with the capacity to heal & endure many things, including viruses.

It did not make mistakes when designing us where it left out certain things to the extent that it would have us being so vulnerable & in need of requiring isolation.

Arthur Miller wrote “I think it’s a mistake to look for hope outside of oneself” and I think it’s applicable to these times.

With the role out of the vaccines for the COVID-19 virus, the CDC & the powers that be are doing everything they can to ensure everyone takes part.

“Happy” Holidays from quarantine.

As I’ve previously written, I’m concerned for people’s spirit, because I think it’s been grossly overlooked when deciding what the best path to take is, with respect to dealing with quarantine & COVID-19.

The impact remains to be seen. We have yet to see the full impact this prolonged quarantine & associated shut down has had on us.

My lady and I recently got back from a week long trip to Utah & it felt good to get away from all the heaviness & COVID-19 questions, concerns, fears, worries, truths & lies.

The first day in Zion, we walked 10 miles to Angels Landing & then 5 more miles the next day through ice cold water in the Narrows trail.

For the past 9 months or so, I’ve been sharing with those closest to me, how angry I am to watch peoples spirit being slowly eroded by the way this entire quarantine COVID-19 fiasco has been handled. I’ve been consistent since day one in saying that this virus is not everything they’re saying it is.

They aren’t simply reporting the science; their agenda is distorting the science & the numbers to support their narrative.

In my previous post, I shared about my love coming into my life several months ago ... but why did it take 13 years?

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek & find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” - Rumi

The above quote by Rumi encapsulates the kind of work & journey I’ve been on during this time.

It’s been 13 years since my last legitimate relationship & for the last 4 months, all that has changed & I couldn’t be happier. Her name is Lindsay & she came out of nowhere; meaning she came from a direction I wasn’t intending, looking in, manifestating or had envisioned ... she’s been so much more than my stubborn self could have ever hoped or asked for.

When we’re terrified, we lose perception ... & that’s exactly what’s been happening to us over the last several months - a constant steady stream of fear, pumped through our television, making our perception, intuition & intelligence obsolete.

Over time, that fear becomes paralyzing. We continue to lose even more perception in what’s really going on & we start to follow what we’re being told & what others are doing…

Def: Wildly unreasonable, illogical or inappropriate.

A lot of people are asking, “when are things going to go back to normal”. First of all, we can never go back to where we were, we can only look to where we’re headed.

We’re in a different world than when we first began this fiasco.

I can name 20-30 virus off the top of my head right now, that are alive & well, living amongst us to this day - & deadlier. But you don’t see most of us freaking the fuk out in the way that we are carrying on like with this COVID-19, why is that?

It’s because of good marketing.Here’s my point: viruses are not our enemies. Actually they’re our allies that help us evolve & get stronger as people.

If this virus & all the associated hidden governmental agenda to spread fear in order to gain control over our behaviors has taught me one thing, it would be that a lot of these big institutions & governing bodies credibility is severely damaged; maybe even irreparable.

No, it doesn’t have a fancy name like COVID-19 or The Corona Virus, but don’t overlook fear as being anything less than insidiously lethal.

Like weeds to a garden, fear slowly but surely covers more & more ground, systemically infecting every area of life, often undetected until our condition has become critical. ⁣⁣

For one reason or another, the writing appears to be on the wall; Covid-19 is going nowhere & we’d better get used to it. Just like many other virus that still remain with us to this day, we’ve grown to accept them without question; we’ve also found a way to cohabitate & live with them, despite having to change our life styles in order to do it. ⁣⁣The rabbit-hole goes way too deep to delve into as to why it came about in the first place...

From the beginning of this entire Corona virus fiasco, I’ve been writing & sharing my viewpoints & some inner feelings of the kinds of things I’ve been going through & working on.

Part of that sharing has been this idea of how the virus & quarantine has been a contributing factor to some personal soul-searching & self examination.

Anger is healthy & an integral part of healing ... never let anyone tell you otherwise.

I’m not a member of AA, nor am I a practicing Buddhist, so take what I’m saying with a grain of salt. It’s often relayed to me by clients that some of these teachings tend to shame people for experiencing & expressing anger during their healing journey.

To heal things deeply, you need to get into the darker, uncomfortable aspects of yourself, that people seldom want to look at, speak about & feel.

Years ago, during some intense periods of deep healing in my life, I used to visualize this process as if I was an orange, where the rind, or bitter aspects of myself was being turned inside out for me to experience all those darker aspects.

Our lives are a byproduct of everything we say yes & no to.This is one of the bigger premise I consistently have on my mind.

It keeps me accountable to the things I’m committed to creating & the kind of man I’m working on becoming.

It “burns” or gnaws at me every time I do something that is contrary to my commitments. .

By definition, trauma on any level & under any circumstance is not your fault; otherwise, it wouldn’t be trauma.

Regardless of how you feel you might have contributed to causing whatever happened to you, I want you to know that it wasn’t your fault, at, all.